Hello, I just needed to vent today. I have been living with my parents for the past several months (I am 31 years old). my mom is a codependent manipulative loser in my opinion. I hate how me living with her has made me look at myself and realize how very similar we are becoming. She puts up with my dad emotionally abusing her and does nothing. My dad is beyond insecure and abusive and seems to have some weird perverted tendencies. I can't stand thinking that I am turning into them in any way shape or form but I see the pattern persisting In my adult years. I do everything I can to get along with them and communicate honestly with them like they taught me, and now I'm growing up to realize they are huge liars. It sucks to realize what bad parents they are and that they really just adopted me because they are sick, insecure, perverted and just racist (I'm Korean..) the past few years I got tangled up into some pretty bad stuff which I'm learning wasn't all my fault. What I am currently struggling with is getting out of a hugely abusive criminal cycle perpetuated by a failing justice system. I'm still so hurt and have been criminally scammed and cut off from a lot of resources. I realize that I am entirely guilty by my actions and association with these people, but I'm at the point where owning my part as best as I know how is no longer enough or appropriate. I feel trapped and I feel hopeless. I don't want to turn into my mom and dad because they are sick people whom I no longer have respect for. I'm not sure if that's because I am still trapped by the actions of my past or if its because I'm too prideful to admit that I truly hate them so much I just know I'm building abusive tendencies In myself which I feel these criminal organizations try to make use of and exploit in people who try to make it out. I think my actions have possibly affected some of the healthy people I have known in my life as well. It's not clear if that is because I need to own up and cut everyone out of my life and start over for my own safety and theirs, or if I am just being too extreme in my head because of how abused and cut off I feel currently. It feels I'm constantly being put into the position of being dumb for "others safety " and I think that's just so unfair to me and people who think that's the case as well. This is truly not what I thought my adult life would look like. Has anyone out there ever had to deal with feeling trapped by the system and even sure if it's a failed justice system or a system as in a criminal organization.
Hope y’all are all having a wonderful day. To begin, I joined this Group because none of my friends or family understand and it’s killing me. I am 23, I have had fibromyalgia for about 8 years or so. It’s been really severe the past 5 years. I just found out 2 weeks ago I have FM. There’s no cure for it and the muscular pain is at a level 8-10 every second of every day. I’ve done all...
I have to work again tonight. I'm worried about how I'm going to function. For some reason I just can't focus on only working. I can't fully pay attention. I get triggered so easily. I'm also really sensitive to things. It's hard to keep it together.How do you guys function at work when things are really bad?