All my life I have had a great deal of trouble with staying focused on one thing at a time. Sometimes the problem is worst than at other times. I managed to get through college with a variety of coping mechanisms but always knew that I was working beneath my potential. I am on the verge of launching a new business. Things are looking great. I have been blessed with some much needed free publicity and exposure on a national level. I am super excited about this opportunity. And yet this fear looms about me. Will I screw this up as I have screwed up so many other things in my life because I just did not get it together. I really do not know how to describe what happens except to say that my thoughts seem to be scattered all over the place and this makes completing tasks very difficult. I start things out but just have a terrible time completely finishing them. How this issue relates to codependency is that my spouse is telling me that there is nothing wrong with me except that I am just lazy. I am just lazy and I am not interested in succeeding in life is what he says. I am hurt and of course since I am codependent, I want him to make me feel valid so that I can seek help for my problem. My mother did not believe in psychological or psychiatric help at all so I have been hesitant to find out if I can get help with this issue. I was always told to just try harder. I did and I have had some successes. Right now between the stress of his badgering and my fear of failure I just do not know what to do. I apologize if this post makes no sense.
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