I relize I am so very codependent. I have no-body to turn to. I am ready to break down. How do I start. I am in a relationship that is so up and down. We should not be togather. I cann't seem to stop it I know he has nobody else to turn to. I enjoy the relationship most/some of the time and we are certainly learning a great deal from each other. He is as codependent on me as I am on him. He is angry with the cards life has dealt him and he takes that anger out verbally. He is violent in his thoughts and words. And is a suicidal as I am. I find myself wanting to help him with everything to make him let go of the past. I want to please him, I want him to commit to me in some way, I want him to trust me, I want all the things I cann't give him. And there is my children I hate to upset them they have dealt a bad hand also with the divorce and there father abandoning them. I have serious health issues and don't know how long I will live. I want them to love me too. See I need help this is all not very healthy and I know it but I don't know how to stop it.
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