Yeah sista, I'd like to share an overdose wit ya, a real one-- not just talking about it. C'mon, boot me up, my first time, I want it to be YOU!

Sharing your bottom with others and how you came to arrive clean is healing!
Sherose

Yea, I've had like at least 6 of those overdoses. I hope one is enough for you. I had to ask a friend,"What is a cocaine overdose?" He replied,"there's 2 kinds, one is a seizure and the other your heart totally explodes and you're dead." I said, "I thought seizures were just normal, from partying for days and days." Shows how insane I was and am still. The last one I had driving down the freeway at 75mph and I did too much. Luckily I didn't swerve on to incoming traffic and kill someone or myself. I just crashed, then when the ambulance came,I was paranoid and I thought they were trying to carjack me. So I ran on foot. I hadn't even realized I crashed my car. After 3 hours of hiding, I walked back to my car and the cops were there. I walked up to them to see if they found the person's who tried to carjack me(ha ha). They arrested me on the spot, the funny thing was I had to be told what had happened. Got me for posession and reckless driving. Even that didn't make me stop for good. It only gets worse, time after time.

Bill W LOL! I am sorry for laughing but.........psycosis is one of those things I share for sure with other users! I usually ended up in a closet using , boards on my windows tv screens and microwaves and good grief if the phone rang YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!! for sure the (thems) bugaboos were comming to get me! Thanks for sharing your story...not healhty hey? and yes....I understand about that not stopping a person from using. ya think it would but...........
Sherose *huge hugs*!!!!!!!

My overdose is story is this. I was at one of our local hangouts and a friend of mine said come outside. He had just hooked up and laid the bag on the hood of his truck and handed me the straw. I remember thinking "Man this is good stuff" then my body jerking and he said that I just slumped over the hood. I kinda remember him helping me to the ground and then this roar in my ears, deafening and somehow I was inside myself. I could feel and see everything that was me. Then, I was in this white room, surrounded by loved ones and peace and love vibrated from everything. I was in bed and my husband(felt like my husband) was holding my hand and there were three people at the end of the bed, friends of mine and a voice said "Grap the hand of the person you most trust". All three of them were holding out there hands. The voice said again "Grap the hand of the person you most trust and I will send you back." I felt myself struggling with this, and finally I grabbed the hand of my friend Kelly and then the deafening roar was in my ears again and very slowly I started to come out of it. I asked my friend who had stayed with me the entire time how long was I out and he said you were unconscious for about 15 minutes, to get your mind to move your body 2 hours. He said you really scared me.

Afterwards, when I talked about this people looked at me like I was crazy, but Im not.

I remember the peace and the love in that room. I remember the feeling that I was surrounded by people who loved me. They were all around me even though I couldnt see them. I felt real love for the first time I think.

This still was not enough to make me stop. I continue to use for seven more years.

That is insane!!!

Thanks angel for sharing this....I have read your story before and just as the firs time I am touched and moved. This obsesssion with cocaine even when overdosing....it still plays with us!
We shall overcome!
Sherose.
"yes yes" I hear you fillip and I am passing your information on to the Mental Health society and my other connections.........thank you! Must admit your passion is admirable!