Tell your gf to leave and the best thing for your son is to be away from you. Even if you do quit, unlikely, it will come back at another time. Trust me, I have been the victim of one and you are all selfish, narcissistic and eternally doomed. Pray for an end to your problems.

Sorry, I am having anger issues. We had 12 wonderful clean years, but now I must get a divorce because he has chosen this again. It is a choice--you can choose not to.

i there if any one needs to talk i have 1 year clean and understand how hard it is pleaase contact me nanouzz@hotmail.com anytime i will reply

i had the same problem. I would do it "one last time" sure i would be done with it, wouldn't crave it but a month and half later, the cycle would begin. i'd do it behind my best friends and boyfriends back.. i didn't think anyone could help me and thought i was just doomed. every line i took i asked myself "why the hell am i doing this". to get rid of the obsession i go to AA/NA/CA meetings. It honestly helps. there is support, theres people who have been through similar situations, and people do not judge you for anything you have done.

it does take time for the obsession to go away, but it does eventually. but only if you dont pick up that first one. after a while of not picking the drug up, you learn how to deal with the cravings and what to do instead of picking up the drug. calling a sober friend, going to a meeting, come on here, doing something active, etc.

sounds to me you'd like some help, and that is the perfect place for it. for me, i cant pick up alcohol or any other drug because i know it will lead me back to coke-it always has in the past.

sometimes its hard to be in a relationship and try to help yourself at the same time. in your heart you know what you need to do, noone can tell you. but i can tell you, it is very difficult to work on yourself when you are focusing on a girlfriend and feelings for her. it is also hard to be in a relationship if the other person doesnt really understand addiction. your girlfriend cant be your savior.

i dont necessarily think you need to get rid of your son, but once the addiction progresses (and it always does) your son could eventually get taken away from you. its happened to so many people at meetings.

go to a meeting and listen to some experiences. identify with the people, dont compare. it works if you work it!

I have two children who because of my "thinking I could control it" attitude have been temporarily taken away from me. I am not a hard user anymore. I would use everyday before and now its once a week maby two weeks but even that is not good. I was never mean to my kids or neglected them but this drug once i started would be more important. I love my kids to death and as of this moment I can't even get into a rehab program until Dec. To know I could lose my kids till them is killing me. Please for your childs life and yours with your child get help now before it gets to late.

DON'T tell your girlfriend to leave and keep your son close to you!
I think Mandy is taking her own life issues out on you hun.

You need to be around the ones you love.
As your son is 5 he still has innocence so this will (I'm sure you know this) bring out the protective daddiness in you.
Keep thinking of him.
Try to keep away from your friends that do it.
If you do go out with them... stay away from clubs and don't go back to their houses. Think about your son.
I know it is really hard, but when you feel like you need to get some charlie just don't go out. STAY AWAY FROM ALCOHOL for a while as subconsciously, you connect the two.
Try to stay strong and eventually it will not be a problem.

Tell your friends that you really want to stop and not to let you do it around them.

GOOD LUCK!
X

Hey, you'll need good peeps around you and as for your son, this is the most important person in your life...you have to do this for you, but you also MUST do it for your boy ! Stop the cycle, this crazy addiction that will likely invade and ruin your son's life as well....unless you stop the madness now ! Do it ! No one can stop you....except you. Cocaine is the biggest rip off on the planet, I know cause I've been the biggest sucker on the planet for the last 15 years and you can truat me on this...you alone have the power to kic coke in the balls and move on....arent you nutz a lil sore right now ? Chin up....get on with your life and give you son a chance....even if you never got one yourself. Peace PT2

hi i know how u feel. i had one hell of a time getting clean and sobor. but i did do it. i now have 16 months. and how did i do that, well i go to meetings everyday. and i got a sponsor.i call my sponsor everyday. its hard work. no one ever said that it would be easy. and its not. even after 16 months i still have trouble somedays. but it is starting to get a little better. always remember to take it one day at a time. some times one min at a time. find some meetings where u live and get a sponsor. and i also have someone in my life who just dont know how to help. but as u start to help yourself things will get better between u. and maybe she can find a meeting just for her. a meeting for familys of addicts. good luck with everything. please feel free to write again.

please read my post from "drinking as a trigger". My name is Bonnie and I will help anyway I can.