i moved to wales three years ago from preston. i hated preston and really needed to escape so i met my current partner matt who i moved down to wales with - he was a bit concerned about taking me here coz the way of life was different. im quite an open character and said ill give wales a go but id visit first, so i was at matts mums house who by the way is an ex dealer but she got caught and was put on a thing where she was tested for drugs every week. i woke up that evening to matts mum and all of his family doing balloons which i didnt know what they were doing basically nitrous oxide. so i was like hmmmmm ok wierd. I said to matt at this point i would never do drugs never ever! Went to my first rave and i wasnt into the music and everyone was off of it so i fell asleep really early which i wasnt bothered about - next day id never seen ppl take ketamine and acid before but matts mum and all of his friends did he would of too if i wasnt there! they looked like they were having a laugh - i felt i had been lied too or something drugs didnt seem that bad to me seeing them enjoying them so much! i didnt try anything for 6 months first thing i did was smoke a spliff which i didnt like, my first drug that i enjoyed was mdma which i really enjoyed - i first started snorting stuff when my friend who was a cocaine dealer (dont see each other much now he is fucked up)but he went bought time you started putting stuff up your nose i had thought about it for a while but too scared but i did thats when i got into speed and cocaine, and ketamine - which at first was a treat and now has developed into a weekendly event - when i have no money my friend has some and gives some to me when there skint i have money and i return the favour - i have never stolen, i wouldnt do crack or heroin, i think the most i felt i have had a problem with is nitrous oxide i bought a big canister of it and would go through alot of ballons a day - anyway i thought id share im in a very big hippy community there all like my family matts mum is like my mum and his brothers are like my brothers i cant ignore that - i feel like im a bit of a bum right now im failing uni im spending more money on drugs and feel im either off of it or having a major come down ug - i think i have a bad habit not a major addiction but its not doing me and my life any good! x
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