Okay so here it goes. My H is a crack addict. Was snorting coke for four years before I had any clue. He started smoking crack over the summer. He went on a 5 day binge and admitted he needed help. He started doing CA meetings and going to outpaitent rehab only to use two weeks later. His car was stolen from the crack house. Recovered abandoned a week later (lucky). Because of the car being stolen, I now knew where the crack house was. Found my H there a month in a half later. I had gone to the door. It was answered by a man with a gun, They got my H out and we left. Last instance was on New Years day. Behavior was shady. I knew a relapse was coming on. Sure enough he went to the crack house again. I got him out again. He was using our rent money to smoke. I had kicked him out of the house. Had a meeting with him, his sponsor and a friend of his from the fellowship. I had told them he couldn't stay at home if he is going to continue to use.I gave him plenty of chances. We have had little contact with eachother since that day and he showes me nothing but resentment. I have been a good wife, good mother, and a good supporter of him staying clean. So whats with the anger directed towards me? Where do I go from here. I understand that recovery is a long process. He says that he doesn't want to use. What do I do? I feel like I am waiting around for him to get better but the few times I have seen him since removing him from the house he has showed me no emotions or remorse or even love. What is going on in his head?
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