,,,at the hosital still with the wife..no time to think about drinking..no money or opportunity to get high on crack..this is life at its purest form and i am so proud that i;m not being selfish trying to medicate myself and feel good in the midst of all this chaos that i'm dealing with..i could get up @ 5 am this morning and take my daughter to the airport...i can remember a few months ago i was still out smoking crack @ 5 am..and to see her in the passenger's seat i wanted to ask her did she depend on me..but i already knew the answer..wanted to ask my wife as she lay in her hospital bed ..did she know she could count on me..but i know she already does..and with 2 credit cards and thirty dollars in my pocket responsible for the family's last dollar tonite i am settled in the little couch next to the wife as the IV runs into her arm and i'm thinking about u guys on this blog who are reaching out to the rest of us for that one motivation to keep u clean..my motivation is my wife..my girls and this fellowship...i see lost1078 online..saw angelia last night as well as many others who need strength and hope to face another day..here is mine..and i need yours as well because my words of encouragemnet is only good for my recovery today..tommorow has its own set of issues of which i do not yet have an answer for...
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