..the mind was active today for a brief moment over crack..and then the clouds cleared and i went on with my day...at about 9:30am i had some whispers in my mind about why dont i go get some crack and smoke it in the projects..and i mean these thought were so subtle..so quiet but i heard them and i said to myself..smoke a little what..i have never smoked a little nothing..the money i had in my pocket would all be needed because thats how i got high and for today i just couldnt see it..i knew that today ..that moment was all i was responsible for ..i didnt get down on myself for having the thoughts or sit there trying to figure out what did it all mean in the big scheme of things..i knew that i was headed to work..had a substantial amount of money in my pocket..had an obligation to get to the job and i was not going to be sidetracked...as this thought went away i went on with my life and the rest of the day was uneventfull..subtle thoughts i mention because my addiction wants me to keep it a secret..minimize it and create a reservation..so i mention it tonite to the group so i dont have to wear it..
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