Its a long story so unless someone asks im not gonna tell everything just in short what happened to me. I had sex with my ex last year whom I believe has been doing cocaine. A couple of days later I had similar symptoms of a cocaine addict maybe withdrawal. I had severe cotton mouth nothing would work except prayer and pleading to God for help. I would wake up all of a sudden at night afraid of the dark. I had to sleep with the lights on. I was having panic attacks. I would look at myself in a mirror and see myself look super skinny but i was not and panic. I thought I had AIDS or something. I was clenching my teeth and I couldnt stop it. It was like I was the one doing the drugs. I was depressed and I for some reason thought I was going to die. When we had sex, we were kissing but he kept backing turning away and I believe it was because he was rubbing it along his gumline after doing my research and led me to get a taste of what it was like to be on that stuff. Its horrible. The paranioa is horrible and I hate that stuff. Am I crazy or does anyone believe me? Has this happened to anyone else?
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