I am back to the realisation of the seriousness of addiction, I am powerless over drugs I was clean for almost 6 months started exersising and putting some weight on what was a fairly skinny skeleton then I had an idea to go and pick up about 60 dollars worth of coke! I shot some and smoked the rest, the next few days I never really felt to out of sorts but its almost a week later and the obssesion is back! I played with fire by entertaining then acting on the thought of using now I fear when I get the cash I am expecting the cycle may repeat itself and we all know once it starts rollin it extremely difficult to stop! I,m just throwing my feelings out there I hope I can post again soon with a positive outcome!
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...