I have been with my boyfriend 4 years now and he has been using cocaine occasionally through our relationship, only once it ever became a problem with the way he treated me and how it effected our relationship. we broke up for 2 months then he wanted me back, I love him so i got back together with him. Everything was perfect until recently....The past couple weeks have been emotionally draining for me....he says things out of the blue to try and hurt me like how he lost interest in me and bascially just treats me like crap. I have been nothing but good to him, but i can tell he is becoming the way he was when we broke up for the 2 months, Its not him its the drug. I am feeling insecure and having major trust issues because i feel like he is cheating on me but i think its because he is hiding the fact that he is doing it again....I spoke with couple of his friends and they told me apparently whenever they r with him he does it. He told me last weekend he has been clean for 1 week and that he is trying to stay clean but i cant help but think he is just saying that. Sometimes when he is out with his friends he will turn off his phone for no reason just to avoid me i think...he gets irritated over stupid things like if i text him a couple times and ask him something he will freak. I cant help but feel like its me that i have done something wrong. Has anyone been in similar sitations? I dont live with him which is a little easier but it is still hard to see him this way...I dont want to leave him I care alot about him and love him...good or bad. But maybe there is ways to deal with it any advice? I am slowly learning to ignore alot of things that he says to me instead of getting upset or mad.
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