... a drug high on crack is probaly the most intense feeling i've ever had...one i dont wish on anyone and whats so baffling is that it will tell you that its better than the outcome you'll get when you get home and the wife says divorce!!!!..thats what happened this last relapse family..she said divorce and i cried my eyes out as i contemplated the possibility of losing the love of my life...now tonite i'm in bed relaxing with that same wife..married ..thinking very intensely about why crack can decieve me like it does...why it can creep in at that majic moment..8 weeks as it seems now..and begin to talk to me about what it would be like to just " get a piece.."....i have never won that battle of dissillusionment when crack tricked me..whether it was a career..previous marriage..employment...incarceration..etc..etc and tonite i'm pretty mad about the tricks crack has played on me..cause as it stands right this moment.. i dont want no damm crack..but what about tommorow??? ...i'm weighing the costs tonite family..and i guess i gotta weigh the cost everyday for the rest of my life...
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