Check out the post 'Help,a bit long,sorry'.
Even clean,I found it too difficult to go to clean/sober dances.I hung out in clubs,alot when I was using.That environment was a trigger for my using.
When I got clean,I tried to go to clean/sober dances,but just the thumping music,the acrid odors of too much perfume and cologne sweat and cigarette smoke,had my heart beating out of my chest.
You will discover other triggers.Money is a common one.I was clean for 5 or 6 years before the payday jitters finally went away.
With us there is never the single choice,we never want just one of anything.
1 is too many,a 1000 never enough.
The disease of more.
I never set out to get buzzed,annihiliation was my drug of choice.You're disease is quite cunning,it will always tell you that you want one,especially all the time.LOL
You are discovering your using triggers,that is a good thing in disguise.You think it's something to worry about,and it is.But your points of temptation will also teach you when to be strongest in your fight against using.

paige,paige,paige...im a addict..im one that doesn't use today thank god..im one that knows that testing my willpower will only lead to failure on my number one priority..my recovery..i do things that are coherent with my life and where i want to go in it..going to see my using friends or being around drugs aren't coherent to that..so i don't and wont..because i cant..why would i take that chance..people in that life feel nothings wrong with it..if i hung out with them i'd only be a matter of time i would be trying to justify it...its called denial..im not in that now and i don't want to deny myself the opportunity to live today..

MY CAREER ( THIS INDUSTRY) PUTS ME IN SITUATIONS, EVENTS ,FUNCTIONS AND WORK... WHERE I...WAS...AM AND CAN BE AT RISK..I LEARNT TO STRENGTHEN MY WILLPOWER ON A 3-5 TIMES A DAY, DAILY BASIS...MEDITATING AND AFFIRMING POSITIVE MESSAGES TO MYSELF...ONE OF THOSE MESSAGES BEING...NO ONE ELSE CAN OR WILL KEEP ME CLEAN BUT...ME...(AWARENESS OF TEMPTATION FOR ME)...BEFORE LEAVING HOME / HOTEL ETC...I WILL ALWAYS TAKE MY OR OUR OWN VEHICLE...THIS WAY I AM NOT DEPENDENT ON ANOTHER PERSON IF OR WHEN I NEED TO LEAVE...WHEN I'M INFORMED OF SUCH AND EVERY EVENT, FUNCTION, SITUATION AND WORK ETC I WILL START MY AFFIRMATIONS FROM THAT MOMENT AND BEGIN THE STRENGTHENING CYCLE FOR MYSELF...I WILL ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE EXITS...SO THAT I AM NOT PANICKED OR STRESSED IF OR WHEN I ENCOUNTER DRUGS...IF I AM APPROACHED I DON'T ALLOW WEAKNESS OR NERVOUSNESS TO SHOW...I USE A FIRM, ASSERTIVE AND POSITIVE VOICE (I KEEP IT SIMPLE) WHEN I SAY...NO THANK YOU...AND WALK AWAY...THEN I WILL LEAVE...I DON'T EXTEND FURTHER ON MY DECLINE...I DON'T GIVE THEM TIME TO CHALLENGE OR TEMPT ME...WHEN IN THESE SITUATIONS...THE MORE YOU PRACTICE THE EASIER IT GETS...I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND BE STRONG...JAH

thank you guys

Honey,

I was once told to stay away from people, places, and things. that did not make scense to me until one day the light went off. i do not go to places where people are using. I do not hang out with people that are using, and I do not do things that will make me want to use.

My disease is a big one. It will tell me that will power is something that all i need. I now know better. I hope you will find a way to help yourself, because using is always an option for people like us.