i have tried to be clean for a while but never really had anything like really fucked up happen for me to really want to... and lemme tell you how my eyes have been opended like a mother fucker, i was on a 4 day binge and seen alot of shit, ive been smoking dope for a while and i finally realized how fucking ridiculas people act... people act retarted and do such fucked up shit while they are high...and yesterday i know this guy who is SERIOUSLY into dope, he got the fuck kicked out of him for and hour and half for ripping somebody off then just keeps on gonig, and he lies to everybody about everything, very very very shifty person, yesterday he came out of the room and his eyes were red and black and tahst it and his skin was almost see through and i swear to god i seen the devil i couldnt even look at him i started crying and right away my girlfriend started crying before i even said anything, it was this incrediably weiry freaky feeling.(ive known him for a while and hes never look like this, hes actually and okay person..i got this incrediable fucked up feeling and i left the house......and ive seen people spaced out and this guy wasnt, this guy was litterly posessed by the devil and now i dont know where to start again, i litterly and truely and 100 percent sure im done this time becuase i cant do this i cant end up like this, im gonna be dead or something and this whole thing scared the livng fuck out of me and it wasnt just a spaced out look this guys eyes were red and black, this stuff makes me very very very sad, but now i just need to find god... has anybody know what im talking about ahve you experienced seeing somebody liek this?
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