so im 18 i have been using drugs for along time i have droped out of school at 15 and have kids and been homeless to many times for to long i have had my share of being locked up i started getting kinda back on track you know better than i was i was trying real hard to stay clear of all drugs i ride dirt bikes a lot when i ride i do coke i was going out with a friend most of my friends are older like late 20s and 30s we were going to ride first time in a while i had been having a ruff time and was happy to go ride to get my mind off things then i ended up doing coke and it all went from there. im using daily doing a lot its taking so much to get me the same high again you know how it is you gotta have more and more to get higher well im now spending hundreds a day and i have a 4 year old son living with my that i love very much and couldn't handle losing im taking decent care of him still even while using and i am putting him first but coke comes 2nd witch disappoints me i wanna be clean but every time i get close i fail and drop myself into a mess im staying up all night for days not eating being sketched out been my house being broken into i've robbed another dealer im getting myself in a bad place i think undercover cops are following me and im getting paranoid about everything my mind wont stop for even a min i cant go to rehab due to my kid is there any options anyone can give me to stop this before it gets worse im willing to do anything but be away from my son i just need advice really bad
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