Hi there, I just signed up yesterday and I hope that this website will help me begin my journey to a new and happy life. I'm a single mother of one and a coke and pot addict. I want to desperately stop but I'm afraid Of going through the withdraws and moodswings.. I tend to take it out on my daughter and I know that it is wrong. I started to smoke pot again when my husband was killed almost five years ago, then about three or four years ago I started to use coke. I'm so ashamed of myself and the guilt and disgust I feel about the way I have been living my life is no longer bearable. I want to be the mother my daughter deserves and I dont want her to start resenting me when she grows up. I have only drug buddies that I actually hang out with everyday.. I dont want to stop being friends but I know that I am going to have to stop hanging around them if I want to stop. Has anyone gone through this? Iwould love to start a discussion with someone who knows just what I am going through. Mari
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