Already familiar with addiction from years of abuse with alcohol. I feel blessed to know what sobriety feels like and I crave being a person of sobriety once again. This time, I want to be free of the control Coke has on who I am and my life. I get the lie I live. I do coke and don't drink so I'm in control. Yet it is not alcohol taking control of my life it is coke. I'm at the point where I get it is no longer fun, I've screwed up relationships, work etc., but it still doesn't stop me from one more binder. I don't want to see what my "rock bottom" with coke will be. I'm scared yet addicted. I have a fricken hole in my nose and I'm still snortin? That is insane!!!! I desperately request any guidance, support, ideas, your story that I may find strength to embrace sobriety from this evil drug.
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