To be honest,my life really sucks.I am olone for xmas,at least i feel i am.I have been really depressed lately,cant seem to see a better future ahead.I am stuck in this town,and dont have the money or resourse to move ahead.Just two years ago i was happy.Since my x and her crack habbit ruined me i am depressed every day.Just cant seem to shake that feeling.I would lke to say somthing more positive but cant seem to come up with anything.I am just lonely and sad most days.Dont even want to wake up,as ther`s nothing to look forward too.I was always a happy person before,and want to be happy again.just cant see how. I hate my x wish i never meet her.She ruined my credit,and destroyed my trust in femals.All most of them want is money.Dont hardly ever meet one thats willing to help me out.When a man is broke nobody seems interested,but if they think you got bucks there there everyday.Wow a double standard.It`s no wonder womens liberation is a rare subject these days.I would love for the table to turn some day.At least i would know that im loved for more than what i can give,but for the good person that i am instead.I worked all my life helping others giving and careing for others,now i wonder why i even bother.I really hope and prey things get better.Because im tired of felling this way.Crack addiction destroys lives.And my situation proves it.Just ask me im a sorry victom.