I've come to realize that my drug addiction has altered my judgement throughout my entire adult life. I've made frequent bad decisions in all areas of life...personal, business, social, etc. I do wonder why it seems, that when a person is most vulnerable(in my case, while using), that we seem to cling to people who down and degrade us, help us to lower our already low self esteems of ourselves, and just in general mentally and emotionally abuse us. I realize this pattern in my life...and can't beleive that I've been so weak as to allow this kind of power over me by another person. I know I must take that power of abuse away...just wonder how.
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