I am torn in regards to whether I need to seek outside help for my cocaine usage. I am doing better than I was before. I do coke once a week now, usually at work (I work in a bar) while I'm drunk. I never do coke when I'm sober. I used to do it four times a week but I have cut back because of summer school. I don't go on all night benders anymore. I don't even go out during the weekdays. I used to stay up til noon the next day but I haven't done that in years. I now stop around 3 or 4 a.m. I starting using drugs (meth, X, Special K, GHB) when I was 19. I haven't touched any of that stuff in at least 4 years. I have cut back because I was kicked out of college. My GPA dropped below 2.0. Three years ago I had a 3.87. I am 26 and still in school. Most of my friends do cocaine. Part of me thinks I can just quit cold turkey but is that even necessary? Is 4 times a month really that bad?
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