When I had only 4 to 5 days clean, I asked a long timer (both in age & in recovery)this question; How will i know I have hit my rock bottom, and if this will be my last one? He thought for a few seconds and then replied: The answer to your question has 3 parts to it. First, You will know your bottom when you stopped digging. Second, you make sure not to start digging another hole when you get your health back (meaning Relapse). And Third, you have dug so many holes that utilizing those holes you can build a very solid foundation to build your life on it. And then he asked me now that you are clean are you a digger or a builder? My answer was I am tire of digging. I have digged all my life, and last one I dug so deep that I couldn't see the sun light anymore. He said Then, you are a builder, go on and start building your life.
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