I know I haven't posted for a while, but I have just been really depressed! I sleep much of the time, and it seems I just don't want to talk with anybody...but that is not because of them. It's just me, and where I'm at emotionally and mentally right now. I've been having lots of panic attacks, and feel just downright miserable. We have been having an extremely hot heatwave, and my air conditioner hasn't been working right. It's gotten to be over 100 degrees inside my apartment! I haven't been able to even see straight. I've been so mentally exhausted, it's very hard to write when feeling that way. I feel like I'm in some sort of survival mode. Please know that I think about you all so much!. And, I will try and check in a little more. I just don't know how to get over this funk I'm in. Summer is hard for me...the heat makes my panic attacks worse. Does this happen to anyone here? And for some reason I get more depressed in the summertime. I don't know why this is, but I do. I haven't even seen my therapist in a few weeks. I feel like I just don't want to socialize at all. It seems as if getting out of bed is a triumph for me. I'm just trying to do the best I can just to get through each day. I just feel like I'm falling apart...and I need some help to put myself back together again. I'm just not sure I can get enough energy to do that. My faith has usually been very strong, but now I feel like I'm questioning everything. i believe very strongly in God, but I have no idea why He's allowing me to go through all of this pain right now. I've been through this kind of pain before...why now again? I'm hoping he'll give me some answers soon....I am becoming very much a "B" word right now! LOL. I really didn't know where to post this, but since I'm familiar with so many of you here on Clarity, I thought I would start here.
Thanks for "listening".
Thanks for "listening".
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