Sometimes this depression gets me to the point of suicide. But, if I did it a lot of my family members would be embarrassed and sad. Somtimes I feel like saying what the hell I would be dead anyway and I would not know what had happened but, then I get scared. What happens if tomorrow brings some joy into my life. It is so hard to continue to fight off these feelings and nothing anyone can say can change it. I have been to a psychologist and I had thought I had worked it out but, again the thoughts return. Please, pray for me. Pray that I never have suicial thoughts again. Thanks.
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