im so lost ..im am not the one in pain...my husband broke his back during search and recover on 911 has had three surgeries and the conclusion was nerve damage that cant be cured ..he been on every drug out there percocet ..like candy now..oxycotins 20,30,40,80's dont work anymore he getting worse he on morphine 100 now...ok heres is MY PROBLEM which i pray you sufferers dont take lightly he was 44 when he broke his back after two years of verbal abuse ( weve been together 27 years) and he never been like that before i gave h im two years to adjust to his new way of life and he couldnt so i had to leave i have two children who CANNOT LIVE IN THAT ATMOSPHERE OF NOT KNOWING WHAT THERE WALKING INTO WHEN THEY COME HOME. but he went for therapy we lived in new york at the time. and it worked he was mean to the outside world but inside our home he was my sweet husband so i didnt leave paid alot of lawyers but never went thru with anything. i know being mean to the outside world isnt the right thing but at least me and my family were normal again...but then he had the idea to move to pa he believes as i do ny will be struck again so we moved...he never leaves the house so who can he take his misery out on but us... again im in the position of protecting my children..my 11 year olds teacher calls and tells me all the things i know ..my daughter is scared and dont know what do to do about it...i Promise her all the time that im here and nothing will ever happen to her but i dont think it calms her. My son who is 15 is just screwing up . and swears once he is of age he getting out of here...I want out of here. My husband wants to just die. i dont want him to but sometimes i think maybe it would be easier...when i try to leave he gets sooo vicious or even discuss going to therapy new docs new treatments. I know my children come first and ive got to go. its just so hard and scary to think about leaving the only life ive ever known we met when i was 16 im 44 now. my son is screwed up he been dealing with this for 5 years happened when he was 10 (my daughters age now) and he 15 i cant screw her up to and let her believe that people have the right no matter what there feeling to behave that way we all walk on eggshells not knowing how he gonna walk into a room. I truly dont wanna leave but i see no choice ANY ANY ANY SUGGESTIONS PLEASE
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