i am so tired of hurting like this i cant take it anymore...no one understands what im going through around here its so frustrating and hubby and kids are just making things worse..no one helps me with anything around the house they all expect me to do everything and i cant even get to the bathroom and back...im tired of noone being able to do anything for themselves around here i cant do it all....i feel so useless like a worthless piece of crap...i have family that lives 4 hours one way from me and my mom called and wants me up there for my grandparent 60th anniversary dinner well she just dont get it i cant even get to the bathroom let alone be in a car for 4 hours...she knows what im going through but she has to have everything jsut perfect or shes mad well i think shes just going to have to be mad....I cant drive on percocet and she emailed me this morning to find out about me taking a bus is she crazy thats a 6 hour drive one way theres no way...im under so much stress im still waiting on my first check from disability and the receptionist at my docs said that i have to bring in 240.00 or the doc wont see me...so i talked to the people in billing and they said 70.00 would be ok....i was supposed to get my meds from the pharmacy on friday and hubby knew about it...so this morning i told him to stop and get them and he said"i dont know what to tell u" i told him what happened to his check he got on friday and he said it was gone which im sure is bull cause he didnt even buy groceries this week we got groceries from a church...im just about to the end of my rope im so ready for this pain and panic attacks and depression to go away but they wont....i feel worthless and totally useless..sorry this is so long but i cant keep it all in anymore im waiting on my medicaid and i think i need to get a psychologist to talk to but i have a question whats the difference in a psychologist and a psychiatrist? i know i need some help and fast i just feel like going to sleep and never waking up again....thank you for all your responses ahead of time...big hugs to all without all of you here on ds i dont know where i would be....thanks for reading this
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