I just wanted to say hi and that I think good thoughts for you often. I typically only get to read more than post - mostly at night too when insomnia kicks in. Been having a rough go of it lately, awful spasms and pain, some of it ibs related but a lot is my back with nerve involvement and painful knots in my back and calves. Saw my pmd Friday and it's just time to try the lumbar epidural and another round of si injections. I go on Monday and for some reason I'm scared. Heck I don't know why, I am fortunate to have a great pmd (anesthesiologist) and he's done the Cervical/thoracic TPIs a lot plus dry needling. I guess I just hate the idea of an epidural - wouldn't do it for childbirth, and I'm sensitive to steroids too so this is weighing heavy on my mind. I guess I'm just wondering if any of you felt this way and how you psych yourself up to get through new procedures. Please no horror stories, I'm a bit fragile right now. I'm trying to focus on the positives, and I know I can't function in this awful state so I have to try something more. It feels like I'm breaking in half and it's so hard to walk or stand for any length of time. It's so hard on me and my kids/husband. I have meds and tens and tools to help me manage but this is my next layer of intervention as the pain is worsened. I hope you can share some encouragement, I have little support IRL so I'm turning to you guys bc you know what pain is like and how it sometimes messes with your mind and confidence - at least it does with me!!! Maybe deep down I'm thinking I should be able to tough it out longer or I'm not wanting to admit how it's getting worse. Idk. I might just be chicken :0 Maybe someone can share their experience and what lifts you up and gets you through this kind of stuff. I don't need/want advice so much as sharing/encouragement if that makes sense... I get enough judgement already, but that's a whole other post lol. Well I'm soooooooo tired; sorry if this is too long!
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