OK, I just need to do some venting. I am so fed up with my family right now. I feel so alone. They don't understand what I'm feeling or the pain I am in. I posted on friday that I am out of pain meds until tomorrow, so I have been hurting pretty bad this weekend. well, my sister thinks she's a dr. and tells me that I'm "lazy" and I need to go swim to strengthen my core. I am aware this helps, but, I am hurting, so I want to be left alone. but she can't let it go. she just keeps telling me i need to exercise over and over and over again. I can't take it! I flipped out on her and told her she doesnt know how I feel, and she comes back at me with "well, I draw blood all day so my back hurts after that" shes working on going to med school, therefore she thinks she's a dr. already. ugh, so my mom just lets her talk to me this way, and my dad tells me I need to stop yelling. I hate it. They don't get it. I'm a black sheep in my own home. so, yeah, this is really helpful with my depression to! Its just a cycle I cant get out of.
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