Im not certain how long it’s been since my last go round with the old comrade diverticulitis but “ it’s back.” Taking some pills meant for a horse for ten days and some anti nausea meds as well as something for pain. CT scan shows no perforation of large intestine and blood work has white cell count at normal to a slight increase. Triage nurse said to call an ambulance but stubborn old guy drove himself instead and afterwards I did cuss myself out for that idea and will never do that again. I knew my symptoms were over the limit on respiration, pulse, and blood pressure but until I got to the ER it didn’t really hit me on how bad I was feeling. Doctors probing of left lower abdomen took pain to the 10 level. Injection of contrast media in the CT scan hit me harder than ever with a flush on temp level. I’ve increased fluid levels but I’m just trying to do my best and caregiving to my son is a bit harder and I’ll go slowly today too. Legal holiday today so I don’t expect my VA doctors to check on me but I wouldn’t count them out either. Any doctor that calls me on a weekend is an amazing idea but it’s fact so anything can happen.
Same stuff different day. Had some really awful thoughts overnight while I should have been sleeping. Finally got a few hours of sleep and woke up to the sound of my little girl needing me.Her smile.Her laughter.Her cry.The sound of her sweet voice.She makes me happy to have lived through it all. Hopefully she doesn’t turn out anythig like me or her Daddy. I wonder if that’s even remotely...
I’m in way to the hospital some of my conditions have gotten worse, I can’t explain it all now cause I feel a little dizzy. But I feel scared & alone & so so tired of all this so I’m reaching out for support that it goes ok im scared