Well, this pain has been getting worse and worse. I know basically where the back pain comes from. But it is getting much worse every day. It seems like just walking to the kitchen or bathroom is a major feat. I can't sit for long without getting major pain in my left hip, which is the pelvic bone I broke, but then standing just makes is worse. I have been sinking into major depression because my life is spiralling further and further into what seems like a chasm. I feel totally useless. I can't do the housework, or anything that most women do. I can't even be a wife to my husband because of pain. My husband is totally supportive and never brings up the sex issue but he is much younger than me and I know it weighs on his mind. We both work, and that is getting harder and harder every day. I am a manager but at a drive in restaurant so it requires a lot of standing and walking. We can't afford for me to take time off though, we are barely getting by as it is. I just try one day at a time to find something to hold on to. I have my husband to thank for keeping me strong this long.
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