So I don't call people back (been screening my calls) or accept invitations out, company in, join in conversations, etc. why? because I am f*%$#ing miserable and it takes everything I've got to just get up, get dressed, and try to make it through a day of work and the necessary things that need to be done (pay bills, make it to doctor appointments, etc.) I can't answer someone with the answer that they WANT to hear when they ask,"How are you?" so when they ask- I tell them and what do I get? A bunch of, "You should... or you need to- what ever". I give up. Don't they know that if it were that easy, I would? My body is screaming in pain everywhere right now and has been for the better part of two months and I'm at the end of my rope- I don't need anyone's should's and what not's- they have no idea what I'm going through. I do know that you all do though so I thought I'd come here and let it out....Even though there is so much I SHOULD be doing right now, I'm throwing another log on the fire and I'm going to curl up with my kitty and rest, hope it works. Thanks for letting me vent- you are always there for me! xoxoLyn
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