My philosophy is that "If I have to live in severe pain, it is better to live in pain and be happy than to live in pain and be miserable". Afterall, I don't have a choice to have CMP or live in pain- but I do have a choice about how happy I am. (This probably works for me since I don't have depression- I imagine it's different for people who have depression in addition to cmp). The thing is, I'm going through a difficult time. I'm being audited for my taxes (which is not a big deal since I didn't cheat on my taxes in the first place, but is a lot of work to gather all the information), my old pension plan demanded $1400 last week (from when I used to work) and said if I didn't pay that they'd send a collector after me (even though I don't want the darn thing), my LTD benefits end in 3 weeks (even though I am not well enough to return to work), my beloved Grandmother is really sick and in the hospital, and my friend's mom died last week. Plus, I'm struggling through a severe pain flareup where at times I can barely get out of bed. Today seems to be a day where I have difficulty finding my choice to be happy- I just feel so sad. Help, I am in so much pain today that being emotionally sad too is not helping at all! Does anyone have any ideas on how to make myself feel happy when I feel so low today?
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