I find it nearly impossible to do the phone anymore, unless I'm on the go and need directions, or have 1 minute and no that's all I have. But to be at home, gather the energy to call someone and then talk is not really any longer in my CFIDS realm. I found myself in the bargaining stages of it in the past eight months. I promised myself I'll call, watch the clock, at the end of 5 mins., say I have to go. But even the energy to posture myself that way, to frame it as such, is too exhausting. I'm over the hump. I know the exhaustion is real. The phone is absolutely very exhausting. It's not in my head. Part of it may be the EMRs from the phone. But that's not all of it. Anway, the good part is I'm not bargaining w/ myself over it anymore. I'm going to minimize the phone as much as possible.
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