CANCER! It's both recognized and treatable!!! I just got back from my doctor's office. I can't type it all out again but it's in my today's journal entry. Even my doctor told me I'd better off with cancer or lupus.

I've had the same thought... And who knows, my next mammo, it might be true...

When my doctor told me I had CFIDS, I just looked at him. After some further discussion, I said, "well I'm thankful it isn't some kind of cancer" He said, "No, cancer I can help you with. There are cures. You're just going to have to accept this and get into therapy to deal with the upcoming depression that comes with chronic illness. Sorry." WHOA!

I have heard of a doctors diagnosis of me/cfs/cfids.... he said "You have ME/CFS. The good news is, it wont kill you...... the bad news is, it wont kill you." Pretty brutal, but at times I have wished I was dead. Not now though! Yes at least cancer is recognised, supported and often treatable.

I was diagnosed with a Stage 3 endometrial cancer in early 2006. Because it was a late stage growth, I had to undergo 4 pelvic surgeries (including a full hysterectomy) and 16 rounds of radiation.
The love and support I received from friends and family was amazing.

I was sick enough from CFIDS that I did not even notice the pains associated with the cancer. I just thought it was part of the disease and so did my (then) Dr.
I felt better while I had cancer than I did afterward becuase the treatments were so traumatic to me physically.

It was just as amazing to see how the support and love evaporated when I did not "get well".

Cancer does not scare me. Living for years with CFIDS is what scares me. It is slowly draining me financially, emotionallly and mentally.

Thank God to this website that I can stay emotionally fit by redaing and writing with fellow sufferers.

At the onset of this disease I was terrified of cancer, absolutely terrified, especially when I found out I had an 82% chance of getting breast cancer and a 32% chance of getting ovarian cancer. As time went on and I became sicker and sicker I began to think if I get cancer perhaps I wont go for treatment. Ill just die. That way I wont be a burden on my family anymore. I was no longer terrified of cancer I was terrified of having to live life as an invalid with no brain, no energy, lots of pain and no desire to go on. I am not a depressed person either I just dont want to live like this. Suicide is not an option for me but living like this is like dead living.

I started a new treatment and Im feeling better. Without the help of this support group I would be sick and have no where to turn. I had been to twenty doctors and none of them knew what was wrong. I could have easily lived the rest of my life in this hell. I am extremely grateful to have a friend who helped and a doctor who knew biotoxin disease.