To all believers in Christ, I need prayers just to maintain my santity. To make a long story short in the last five years I have lost my mother to cancer, endured depression, home foreclosure, have lived on a part-time income, two auto accidents which still gives me pain, gone thru a bitter break up with an ex boyfriend....now I'm am living with my older brother who has turned the family home into a whore house with his women coming and going, drinking excessively and chain smoking. When I ran out of living options, I reluctantly moved back here because I had no other place to go... I applied for an apartment with rent control, but it never came thru. I had no intentions of living this way because I left a sinful environment I was hoping to change my life...now I'm just confused as to why God would allow me to be here in this situation. I'm too weak to keep fighting this cause. I fight suicidal thoughts each day because I have no one to confide in because my confidence has been betrayed by close family members who pretended to be friends and repeated personal information I discussed with them, so now I spend much of my time alone when I'm not working. To top it all off, I have a secondhand vehicle that keeps breaking down so I am using the money I saved to help me relocate on this vehicle which constantly needs repair. I don't want to give up, but the pressure is mounting.... My desire is to relocate so I need prayer to find a good job so that I can move and begin to rebuild my life again. Thank you for listening and for your prayers.
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