I saw my dau today.. I havent seen her since before Christmas, before that before Thanksgiving, when she got the treadmill she so badly needed.. I had laid down the law to her. I loved her , always will, Im her mother obviously, but she is an adult now, tho she is a immature 19 y/o. I dont want the stress giving her advice, she wont listen or respect my input anyways.. I told her I would like to be friends, I would always be here, but am not gonna be treated like dirt , or subhuman.. So she and i did see ea other for 2 hours earlier in the week and again today.. However, I asked her to clarify some things to understand her thinking,, I asked her why I was sponsoring this guy from Algeria. her response "Your obligated to, youre my mother " I said "no , you are an adult , this is your relationship, I dont need to be involved..I am supporting you because of love and consideration, for you , yassi and your future children" I asked her how is that reciprocated?? Are you able to say that to me,, that your love for me is enough to help when I ask,? I work alot and after the finacial mess I went thru from all the hurt from this wretched estrangement,, I could get ahead if i had help , with the pets,, Im gone at least 14 hrs when working,,,with her being 2 blocks from the house and is indifferent to let the dogs out ... She then said"its not my fault youve alienated yourself from family because of the animals." really????is this the #@$%& my mother is feeding her now?? when my son left i had 4 cats and a shitzu.. there was not enough cats in this town to fill the void when my son left and my family rejected me.. The work I put into the horses, I didnt know jack about putting up horse fence but I learned for my dau to have a self esteem.. I am so hurt tonoc, I can barely breath.. I dont win, there is no grace for me, its always an excuse for the alienation, I am of no value to this gene pool, I cant use the word family , as it is not the definition of family.. I was the wierd one who found joy, in everything,,, I loved my patients, I loved creation, and would and still pick up injured animals and bring them home to provide care. I so loved my kids and being involved in their life and watching them grow, I loved exposing them to art, and music, and nature,,, but I apparantly am subhuman I offer nothing of value, I cant stand the hurt and the rollercoaster, after wishing her well , and explaining my hurt I defriended her, I suppose this sounds childish.. I dont use facebook much , it was an avenue to communicate with her when she ran off to algeria.. I just cant take the rollercoaster, I hate the depression and sorrow
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