I have been severely depressed for so long,I don't remember what it's like not to be depressed. I can't seem to dig my way out of it. I'm a Christian, I have faith, so I feel guilty that I must not be doing something right because I still feel this way. This is not living. I'm merely going through the motions day to day. I've lost the love of my life, my 19 year old son is going through a serious legal situation, to name a couple things. I'm on medication for depression and anxiety. Some days are better than others. I also suffer from not just PMS,but PMDD, the severe form of PMS. I don't have insurance so I can't go to therapy because I can't afford it. I feel lost and used and wondering what's the point of all this. And then I remember again that I'm a Christian and God wants me to be happy, so I feel guilty that I'm letting Him down. I need help, I don't know where else to turn to.
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