So, here I am. I don't know why. I need help and someone told me to come here. I am having alot of feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy. I regret not being a better wife, mother and friend, but at the same time don't feel motivated to put myself out any more than I have already. I am feeling "sucked dry" by all the pressures of life, but yet, don't feel like I can do anything but keep giving out. I find joy and pleasure in giving out of myself, but overwhelmed at the vast never-ending drain. I want some Christian counselling, but cannot afford to pay, even though our "income" is SUPPOSED to be enough...ha! I have so many issues running through my head right now it's hard to put it all down. I am in ministry, but yet, feel like a failure there because I can't even keep my OWN emotions on track. My marriage is intact, but only by the grace of God, because I have really put nothing into it for quite some time. Afraid of loving. Afraid to TRY.
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