I'm really concerned about this. Seeing as how I have the bi polar and I do crazy things sometimes, I feel like I am not worthy to be a child's mother. I feel unfit to be blessed with such a wonderful thing as a child. But God knows what He's doing, he gave me a child, so I must be able to care for her. Right? I just don't want her primary memories of her mom to be that "mom was a nut." I am depressed half the time and manic the other half and it makes it nearly impossible for me to do "mom things" with her, unless it's watching TV. I don't want her to turn into a TV addict, but because of my physical problems, I can't take her outside and run and play with her. I can't be the kind of mom I always wanted to be, for her. I guess this is just another one of those things I haven't seen through clearly yet. I have stood up for her, against her freaky grandparents, and I have taught her to say thank you and hello and goodbye. I try to correct her when she does something wrong. I'm chasing my tail again, aren't I?
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