I've spent a long time wanting to have that moment where God spoke to me clearly. That moment where I finally "got it" if that makes any sense. My wife and children are out tonight and I find myself at home alone... I was dreading being at home alone tonight with nothing but my thoughts. I'm at a pretty rough point in my life, one where I'm just exhausted and tired of trying. Somewhere deep inside I know God has been calling out to me and asking how stubborn I plan to be. How much it will take to finally throw up my hands and say I give, I need you... I've received a couple hugs and a couple messages from some of you. Total strangers saying things in a way that either I haven't heard or haven't wanted to hear. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I'm just sitting here weeping and somehow understanding a little bit of what God has been trying to say.
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