Basically my dad left me and mom when I was 4, I'm 19 now. Let's call him Herman. Anyway, so after he left us, he met this one lady, possibly had a kid with her, but isn't really sure if it's his, hasn't seen or spoke to her. After her, he met someone else had a few kids with that one. Left. [[Surprise!!]] Came back for like a week, tried to patch things up with mom, but moms already happy with her life. He leaves, meets someone new that already has 4 kids of her own, he stays. What gives? Is it because they aren't his?? Anyway, so the very end of June he calls just out of the blue, like usual, and tells me my other grandpa died and just wanted to let me know. What was I supposed to be more shocked about? My grandpa dying, or him calling? I still don't know. Anyway, so we've been talking to each other about once every week-3 weeks. So sad. Whatever. During the time from him leaving me at 4 till now, we have not received one penny from him or child support. I asked him about it, and he claims to be making "back child support" to the other kids, BUT NOT ME. Shouldn't the "back child support" be going to me because I'm the first and the oldest? Or was he possibly lying, again? I'm so tired of all his games and his BS that I just don't even care to talk to him at all. But I still want to keep some kind of contact just in case I need personal info for the future. His new life and everything really bothers me, maybe I'm jealous that this white trash[no offense to anyone else] of a family has him and not me but I have a reason to be jealous. He was there for everything that happened in that family but not mine, and he's my real dad. Who's supposed to walk me down the aisle when I get married? And it seems that when we talk he doesn't even care. I can hear it in his voice and he's just like whatever. UGH! IT DRIVES ME NUTS! But ya, I'm not sure if I have an actual question here, I guess I just needed to vent. But if you have any comments during any time please leave em, I wanna hear what you all say.
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