I just found this group... was looking for anxiety panic group ( still looking) But Im sure my anxiety stems from my childhood abuse. My Dad was the abuser, He was a major alcoholic, there was six of us kids. My older sister was severley burned on her face and front of the body, she hated me.. then there was me...after me a set of twin boys.. then two more boys later.I got most of my Fathers cruelty. He had a quick temper so got hit.. But the emotional abuse was the worst.My Mom ignored me. Im sure if she stood up for me she would have to look at the real deal, and to this day she professes her love for him.He has been dead for 15yrs.My twin brothers that I was closest to are both dead from drug over doses.And my brother that was second to the youngest died violently at the age of 25.(Dad was cruel to him too) the youngest member of the family has been on meth for over 20yrs.I am now 57yrs old now and my self worth has been sooooo shitty at times real shitty alot... and want the anxiety to go away FOR EVER.. I have been in counseling over the years, anti anxiety meds, that I am afraid to take for fear I will get hooked like my brothers.I exercise, watch my diet and read alot of self help books. IM TIRED OF THE PANIC, IM TIRED OF THE FEAR,I WANT TO FEEL COMFORTABLE IN PUBLIC AND AT MEETINGS AND CHURCH anyone out there have suggestions??? Help!!!!!!
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