I joined this group because, initially, I had found it for a friend. I realized, I could probably benefit from this too. I was dr. Phil the other day and I remembered something...when I was 4 or 5, I remember being in the back room of our little apartment with my older sister (then age 6-7) and two neighborhood boys were there. We were playing "house" and my older sister and the older little boy went into the closet to talk and me and the little boy got naked and under the covers. I told him to put "it" inside me because I was "too young to get pregnant". I always had this memory, but never thought this one thing....why would a 4 or 5 year old know where the penis goes and why it would or wouldn't get her pregnant. I distinctly remember thinking that I was too young to get pregnant and really wanted to have sex. Is this normal for a little child? I know it is normal for children to explore one another's bodies and parts, but that is so specific. My dad walked in at that time with a shocked look on his face and that is all I remember. I don't remember if I was punished, I don't remember anything after that. But after watching that Dr. Phil where he had people on there who'd been abused and had many other problems as well...not all the people were abused. Anyway, it just triggered that memory. The only other abuse I remember experiencing during a child is me and my sisters sitting in the closet every night trying not to hear the screaming fights of my parents and my sister being pulled up the stairs by her hair and, one time, being back-handed. My dad liked to call us stupid on a regular basis and he was never around. My mom was just uninvolved and emotionally disconnected. I dunno? Nothing I remember is as traumatic as some of the things other people have gone through on here. Anyway, just wondering what you all thought about my memory.
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