why did i get so paranoid about what the OM would say that I continued to lie to my husband in my revelation of the affair....thinking that the OM would lie to get back at me? Why would I tell my h i had been with OM on days I knew I hadnt.....doesnt make sense, just lke the cheating.... i guess i thought my h would believe the OM and not me....and then once i told him i thought i had to stick to that even though i knew it wasnt true....god no wonder he doesnt know what to believe or waht to think ..... every night i think about him and all the good times and i am sure he just thinks about what i did to him...i especially remember times like when we laid in the hammock in the backyard with our doggies curled up in blankets and watched fireflys dance in the sky all around us....and the time our older dog dug the stake up out of the ground that was supposed to deter moles....because the sound seemed to drive him crazy....and how he pranced around like he was so proud....or how my husband loved me even when i had two broken legs, two broken heels, a broken pelvis, multiple other injuries and an inch of hair on my head.....god i suck!
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