If you read my profile it will tell you how I came to find this online support group. I am the wife of a husband who cheated. I have been searching for answers so I can try and understand what went wrong. I am obviously trying to repair my marriage but this affair is fresh and the wound is still healing. I need to know why. I was, no, I am a damb good wife. I support my husband in everything he persues. I give him good advise when he ask me and I listen to him when he needs someone to talk to. The only problem we had was the infrequency of sex. In the beginning of our relationship we were having S four to five times a week. That wasn't good enough. I tried to tell him I need to rest sometimes and He would just get angry. I thought it was something wrong with me so I tried taking some herbal pills to enhance my sex drive and they worked. We were having sex six to seven times a week. But if I got sick or if I was depressed like when my grandmother died I was still expected to have sex with him. This made me angry very angry. So I cut back on sex dramaticly. He was lucky to get it twice a week. This went on for years. The frequency went up sometimes and down others. We never argued about anything other than sex. I became very turned of by the idea of having sex with him or anyone else for that matter. Now he has calmed down a bit. For the first time he says he understands me and does't pressure me for sex. I get suspercious and I was right. He was getting BJ's from some women he me when he was at work. When I found out I was hurt. His reason was He wanted BJ's and I wasnt giving them to him. My point is after all I have been thru with him (and this only scratches the surface) I should be the one to cheat on him because all this time my emotional needs were never addressed. I put him and the kids first and the expense of my physical and emotional health and I needed someone to be there for me. I was lonely in a house full of people. when do I get what I want and need. I need to understand this infidelity because I don't think I can continue to be with him feeling the way I feel.
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