First of all. I know I’m a screw up. I caused myself so much grief and depression it’s not funny. I emotionally have cheated and had physical contact with others while in my relationship. I’ve always felt something missing and alone. I feel like I could never share what I was going through with out there two sense or just general anger. So I looked else where for that connection. I did terrible things that I regret. I’ve lied. I’ve been caught. I’ve been trying to cover stuff up. But no more. I just want too be honest and forth coming but I believe it’s too late for that. I guess you don’t really appreciate what you have until you’ve lost it. Anyways.
I felt different today today for the first time in ages. Maybe that’s why I’m here. I want to be able to explain my side and my truth too the matter. I want toobe theperaon my partner needed me too be and never was.
My BS has been having an extremely difficult time and I have to admit that I haven't helped much. When he was triggered, he would start alking about how he felt and the effects of my action, then to queations that were impossible to answer and since I couldn't answer to his satifaction, and finally to straight out verbal abuse. Before of when he reached verbal abuse I would react irrationally,...
Question: Has anyone been the cheater and then...really not known whether or not to continue with their marriage? It's been 3 months since my husband found out (when asked, I admitted it) and I felt like I tried to be open to reconcilliation for maybe 6 weeks before it was too painful every single interaction and filed for divorce. Even after filing, different things have brought up emotions that...