I have to own my behavior first and foremost. I do not know where to start. I was in a situation where my mother in law was living in my home, as well as my wife's two younger sibblings. There was a situation that made this arrangement become mandatory. At first we had order and the rules were followed. Pretty soon, I was being completely disrespected by my wife and her entire family. When I would bring up my needs or my discomfort, she would stonewall me or reduce my feelings. After a while, I began to look around for other things to do (other women). I tried communicating my needs in a calm and respectful way without being demanding, but no response or change in my wife. At this point I felt ignored and completely unfulfilled. It is like the starvation of all things needed has driven me to the point of self destructive behavior. I have become a serial cheater and I use to be a one woman's man. I am 35, love my wife, but do not know how to get to a clear patch. It almost feels like an addiction has come over me. My wife blames me for everything. I know that what I did was wrong, selfish and greedy, but I did not know how to cope with the situation. I was thinking in my head that in time the rough patch would pass and then I would stop. I don't even trust myself these days....I went to the doctor and they treated me for depression.... It's like i feel lonely even when my wife is sitting in the room with me and if I even mention one of the things her family is doing to make me uncomfortable, she shuts down completely.
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