Hello, my name is Tracy and I truely have a problem. I've been married for 14 years and about 7 months ago I cheated on my husband. Me and the other one is still seeing one another. I've asked myself over and over why? i cheated. So far I came up with the answer(i think). I'm 38 and my husband is 60. We always had a boring life together. He has never been a social person and all he does now is work and come home. We don't talk as much and lately it's hardly at all. He feels that by working and paying bills makes a wonderful marriage. Now,hear this at this stage of my life I feel as if I'm losing out on life.Wait, let me explain. At the age of 14 I had my first child and thanks to my mother she made me care for that child. Thus made me grow up fast and then7 years later I had my 2nd child. Shortly after college I met my husband so at the age of 24 I became someones wife. Then my 3rd child was born now I have a grandchild and 4 stepgrands. So with me and my husband not really talking and my life seeming to come to a halt.I decide that i refuse to be 40,50,60, years old and not live for myself. It's very hard to explain the other one is the same age I am and we can cumnicate better. It's like when i'm with him I don't have to be the wife or mother I can be Tracy. I have a good time with the other one , it's not all about sex. He understands me better and it's sad but true. I have tried several times to stop seeing him but I really love him and love my husband too. We have a speacial relationship. I'm welcomed into his family and really enjoy being around them. My husband family don't accept me and hasn't in 14 years so I don't visit them and they don't visit us. Anyway, I know cheating is wrong but right now I'm just living I can write a book about my life and all the shit that's in it. I have so much pressure on me I'm the person that if you call I'll answer no matter what i'm doing I can't seem to say no. So being with the other one is my time-- time to be me the person whom I refuse to let die. Again I know cheating is wrong!!!!!! help me please
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