I've been in affair on and off since before last summer. I tried no contact and counseling for several months, but I was miserable and suicidal partly because my OM made me feel so good about myself. What made matters worse was when my husband was constantly berating me and drinking. Yes, he did find out about it. There's a long history of emotional abuse in our marriage mostly because of his drinking. However, he is doing a bit better now, even though I'm sceptical. In the meantime, I contacted my OM again, and we're now madly in love with one another. Neither of us wants me to end my long term marriage over this, and we both feel terrible about what we've done. However, the love between us is genuine, too. My question is how can I end it this affair once and for all without it tearing me and the OM apart emotionally? When I tried to end it before, I truly felt the loneliest and saddest I've ever felt in my life, and as I mentioned before, I was very suicidal. I don't want to be there emotionally again, but I also know I need to try and give my marriage one last chance.
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