and the saga continues....
So here's an update to my situation. Lately I've been feeling upset because the whole cheating thing is getting to be too much to handle especially since I love another guy that I'll never be able to be with. such a waste of my time. So we get into a fight yesterday and I go off on him about how it's too much for me to handle and how he doesn't care. Well I'm sending text after text freaking out because he's not answering. So finally I'm like listen I trying to talk to you about something so I say again that this situation is too much to handle and he says yeah I agree we should stop because you overreact and are too emotional. Obviously I wouldn't have become emotional if he didn't lead me on for all this time. You don't just develop random feelings for someone it's got to be something they're doing or making you think. I tell him all this and he can't believe I'm blaming this whole thing on him and doesn't want to talk about it anymore. I finally tell him I'm going to therapy because of how bad he messed me up and he says that I'm already messed up and he didn't do anything and he's never disrespected me which is a lie. He says that I can blame him all he wants but he's not arguing with me anymore and doesn't hate me but he's 100% done. So of course he twists that on me being the bad guy that blamed him and freaked out on him. I keep saying I'm sorry (because I'm an idiot) but he ignores me and finally blocks me. At this point I'm really upset so I call my friend and she tells me that he talked to her about me and said these horrible things about me. How I'm a psycho whore that's obsessed with having sex with him and that he moved to Florida to start over and never had any intention of me visiting him. I'm hysterically because I can't believe this. This whole thing was a lie. He lied and manipulated me from the very beginning. I should have known better everyone kept warning me about him. This guy that I trusted and loved and risked everything pretty much can't stand me and thinks I'm grimy. He's a totally different person when I talk to him. So at this point I feel like I'm gonna have a mental breakdown. He still has me blocked and I don't know where to go from here. I'm at such a loss. Why can't I just accept that he thinks this way and block him? In a way I want to be able to tell him it's over and tell him I know everything just so I at least have some control over this. Advice anyone please? I went to therapy today and that helped a little, but has anyone gone through being manipulated by someone who you thought would never do that to you?
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